Bhai, lagg rakhi hai!
23rd March 2017
Remember the pangs of anxiety before my Physics exam, 5 years ago? Today I feel the same nervousness. I was ashamed of my failure then but tomorrow I want to fail.
Kal main apna HIV test dene jaa raha hoon.
If I were HIV positive, I wouldn’t know what to do, where to go, whom to tell. Apne boyfriend ko bhi maine nahi bataaya hai. I don’t know how he’d react.
26th March, 2017
Aaj tha mera ‘Sachh ka Saamna.’ I went for my HIV test! Can’t say anything for sure until I have the report…
In fact ek aur baar jaana hai because HIV tests are done twice, just to confirm the result. Also, Doctor saab badey hot hain, so that helps!
I have been reading about HIV a lot now. I guess pehle I didn’t know much, isiliye darr zyaada lagta hai. But doctor ne samjhaaya ki zindagi khattam nahi ho jaati if you are tested positive. There are ways to live a great life even with HIV. The key, however, is early diagnosis. Isiliye test regularly karaana chahiye.
30th March 2017
I am HIV negative! Thank God, jaan mei jaan agayi result dekhkar. Although Sachh ka Saamna Part 2 abhi baaki hai because they want to be 100% sure, par iss baar mujhe zyaada tension nahi hai.
Phew. But now, I want to avoid the drama and just wear a condom. Raghav nei toh insist bhi kiya thha but I was being stubborn. Mujhe hi chahiye thee ‘skin-to-skin feel’.
This is just too much adventure in life- ab humse na ho paayega.
So here’s my checklist:
Always use a condom: I don’t care how horny we are in the heat of the moment, bhaiyya apni suraksha, apne haath.
Talk!: Mujhe hi pataa hai how I felt while I went to get tested. Mostly because koi HIV ki baat hi nahi karta, so it felt like such a big deal. If I talk about it openly, maybe kissi din I could end up helping someone!
Get tested regularly: Kissi ka kuchh bharrossa nahi hai and you know I like being in control 😉 Click here to get tested.